Monday, November 16, 2015

Feel Like Writing

After a very long time, I am in this 'Feel like writing' mood. I discovered that this happens when the mind is full of something and words are few.

I am thinking of closing this series of blog posts soon, say mid of next year and then planning to do something different on blog. Ten years of blogging, although very rare these days, blogger has been my start of real writing.

Technical Writing, Content Writing, Technology Writing, Techno-functional Writing, Instructional Writing are few of the many kinds of writing that my jobs taught me. But my blog taught me things that these kinds of writing didn't teach.

How to write without worrying about the grammar?
How to write without worrying about what a reviewer would say?
How to take comments well?
How to think like it doesn't matter what you write as long as you write without hurting other people?

Somewhere during the blogging tenure I thought I will try to make some cash out of it... Then dropped the idea.
Someone picked up content that they thought interesting and posted on newspaper.. Felt good. Then decided that I wont target the newspaper as well. It should just happen that I write something and it gets liked and picked up. It is so easy to start writing for a targeted audience which I didn't want.
Some people I know started blogging and claim to have got the interest from my blog pages. This is good news and I cherish the credits.

Some people still follow my blog, although I rarely can make time for blogging. It is for those bloggers I write this post notifying of my decision to start a new blog, the topics or content of which are not yet decided. I am not even sure if I would be doing a new blog space, but the fact is I want to do something new. When it clicks you will see it as a post before I wind up this space.

I still have a few more months before my new venture begins, so keep watching for some thoughts that may come up.. although in the middle of the night like NOW.


Wednesday, November 04, 2015

Midnight Masala

Its a popular colloquial term I recall from my Chennai times used in many contexts. Here my context is : At four minutes past midnight on a very normal day/night, what are the masalas on my head :

1. How do some people's skin glow like they just came back from utopia where there are no rashes, blemishes, tan and wrinkles?
2. How do some children sleep through the night from day one of their birth?
3. How can work be exciting after a trying and tiring day at home with regular demands from everyone?
4. How does programming glue you to computer like nothing else in this world?
5. Why does a No Whatsapp message bring a slight 'low' to you at this hour? Would everyone you know be night watching like I do?
6. What is for tomorrow's breakfast?
7. Did I sign the school diary today?
8. Do I have a work plan for tomorrow's home day and work day?
9.Isn't multiplication the toughest math in this world?
10. What is it like to Sleep like a Log and to Sleep like a baby?
11.Do we get to recall all of these in the same order or different in the next five minutes? Possibly Not.. The mind will be at the next question set then...

Now, why isn't the mind ready to take rest??

Should just go off on a holiday sometime.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Realization - Huge Leap

Realizations are generally blessings when they happen in time. I have been feeling overwhelmed over the last few years with child birth, the after math effect which includes predominantly crying and trying to understand the cries mostly, dealing with toddlers and the nano-second to second mood swings - both theirs and mine.

Yesterday was the first ever time I have been away from my daughter. She has gone to spend few days of her vacation with her grand parents. Clock seemed to tick slow.. there seemed nothing to be done at home. My younger one was still toddling away to reach everything within his reachable limits in the house, still, all my thoughts were so totally fixed on my daughter who was still on the train traveling with my Dad.

Last night, when my son slept off early by my standards at 9:30P.M, I sat down to watch T.V, hoping that would divert my mind from what I realized was boredom. Four years of beingg too busy and never a moment to sit by myself made me think...I switched off the Television.

Afterall what would life be without all the tantrums and fights and smiles and cranky moods, and cries and laughter and chasing around the house and messing up neatly folded clothes and emptying the laundry bag and singing bits of paper and throwing the smallest bits of paper on the floor and picking up things from the floor and biting and chewing things and getting yelled at every time that happens, and posing for photos and snatching my phone and.... the list is endless... The things that the children can do cant be listed really.

I have been picking up things, cleaning up messes, arranging things amidst all the yells and smiles and cries and fatigue. Now, in just one day, I understood, if it weren't for all these my life would be only boredom... If everything was organized, if everyone behaved, if everything is per plan, if everything is just picture perfect, then what exactly would make life interesting,the way it is...?

I miss my daughter's presence in the house as much as my son who is too small to be on his own. He does create mess of things in his own way but it just isnt the same for him without his sister to help complete the mess the way they do.. and it is just not the same when I dont yell and run behind them saying Watch OUT all the time...

Realized that everything in life is a phase and has a preset time. Whether you enjoy the moment or not, it will just pass off...

Children will grow up faster than I can imagine. Seems to me like yesterday that they were new borns. When my daughter waved me a Bye yesterday afternoon, it seemed that she has grown up suddenly. Silently, I could not take it. Coming to think of it..I waved Bye to my parents too...This is just a trailer of what life may have in store for me as a parent.

So decided never to complain about the many things that I have been complaining about in the past. I love my house the way it is for, it is the kids who matter the most and their joys and not how I want my life to be...

Friday, July 10, 2015

Ramayana - three year old's doubt.

I was trying to tell the Ramayana's nut shell version to my daughter. The attention span is ten min and then its the next story. So as i was doing a marathon run with my story she stopped me at one point.

Amma " you say Sita Devi gave her hair clip to hanuman as identity card ... so what will she do to clip her hair? "

For those of you who are trying to understand where hair clip and identity card comes in vaalmiki ramayana, its the sundara gaantam. Sita Devi gives her choodamani to hanuman to be given to Rama. Choodamani as explained to my daughter was hair clip.

I didn't think what Sita devi would do to tie up her hair if she gave away her clip. Did you?

Friday, July 03, 2015

why so many writeups on women?

I may not be correct when i ask this question.. why so many write-ups on women.? BUT i guess its on a visible increase for those who read a lot online.

Recently, as recent as one month long now, I have started spending a little time on generic reads online mostly on links directed from face book news feeds.

At least over the last six days there are articles on women who have gone through rough times in the hands of men in many different circumstances. Agreed men are strange and can be tough to deal with simply because they are THE MEN, but these overtly descriptive and candid write ups on what all happened in a girl's life and how she came out shining makes me wonder... where is the mistake really..all mis-behaviors as women write seem directed in the lady's favor. Are all men bad?

Definitely not. One of the articles i read spoke about a girl who thought she needed to know IT all before her wedding night. She has tried many boys and now writes about her emotions being played with and calls it inappropriate. In a land where there was (and to some extent still a definition of celibacy) wonder how people can cross limits voluntarily? and then blame all the men. I don't talk about accidents that happen to the young and old girls here.. i only talk about incidents. Movies, Music, Serials, T.V.Shows, Advertisements.... all have women playing roles and talking dialogues that are ruining womanhood in many ways. So if that's OK then dear smart young ladies please stop writing about boyfriends betraying you in anyway.

This will save some Internet bits. Remember your articles get popularity because everyone wants to know what went wrong.... how u came over it can fetch u some warm smiles but the fact remains... why write about it when its about someone who was once important to you?

If you have to talk about some really personal stuff talk about it to people but not online. Remember this is an open platform where people form their own opinions. Now most articles written state - whatever happens don't worry. you are not alone. Comforting as they may be sometimes they also send provoking messages to the formative and adolescent minds. Beware of intrusion in the joyous world of innocence. The message should be " All are nice as long as you know your limits" and NOT...."Men are bad.. do whatever you want just because you feel like it".